Sense Of Emptiness
I'm so overwhelmed.
Between relationships, graduation, shifts, and my own self care, it's all getting to me.
I'm not able to be independent at home, I keep messing up with my partner, I still a bunch of hours to do to finish school which the last day is the day right before graduation, some of things aren't even graded right now.
But what sucks is with both my partner and family.
I keep messing up. I keep disappointing them.
This entire semester, the entire program has been so I can finally be able to support them and yet it still crashes down as I'm trying to finish.
They say I don't give them enough time, that it's not as special as it was before, that they want more.
How can I do all that while still trying to focus on my studies?
I'm not even focusing on myself anymore.
I eat so terribly, my room and car is a mess, I barely get to enjoy my hobbies anymore.
At this point, I can't feel anything anymore.
I feel numb.