Taking Care Of The Family
I'm the youngest of 2 children.
My sibling and I are 7 years apart.
Growing up, I always felt behind of my family.
My sibling and my parents would get along easier while I'm stuck in school and not much experience. It also doesn't help that I don't know our native language because I was only taught english in the house.
They moved out about 3 years ago, my parents having hopes for grandchildren, etc. However now, that hope is now on me.
Recently, my parent's relationship with my sibling is now getting rocky. My sibling hasn't visited the house in I don't remember when nor do they hang out with our parents often. Even with me, my sibling and I haven't been together for a bit. Part of it is them working night shifts. Part of it is also them wanting freedom away from our parents.
I just feel trapped now.
There's expectations of me to take care of the parents, to provide grandchildren, to not be my sibling.
I still love them all, but sometimes I do wish I was my sibling; to be out of the house, to be independent, and to do whatever I want to do without fear of judgement. But at the same time, I feel guilty for leaving my parents behind, to go against their wishes.
They've supported me in so much and what do I give them in the end?
I'm not responsible for my parent's goals and dreams. But I also do want to consider them for my plan for the future.